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siyvaruli Tu siyvarulis deficiti

(Tamaz WilaZis ,,mdgmurebis” mixedviT)


Cven am cxovrebis mdgmurebi varT... adre Tu gvian davtovebT wuTisofels... cxovreba mdinaresaviT swrafad miedineba... droc sadRac mieqaneba, Cven ki misi SeCereba ar SegviZlia... unda vecadoT, erTmaneTs siTbo da siyvaruli ar movakloT am xanmokle wuTisofelSi. Cveni aq yofna iseTivea, rogorc mdgmurebisa - sxvis binaSi...
vfiqrob da vrwmundebi, rom mweralma Tamaz WilaZem wuTisoflis mdgmurobad CaTvala adamianTa cxovreba da amitom daarqva Tavis nawarmoebs "mdgmurebi". am nawarmoebis mTavari problema ojaxis wevrebis gulgriloba, gaucxoebaa erTmaneTis mimarT. siuJetis ganviTarebis fonze ikveTeba yvelaze mTavari, siyvarulis deficiti da amiT gamowveuli konfliqtebi.
am qveyanaze yvelas Tavisiani uyvars: adamiansac, frinvelsac da saerTod, yvela cocxal arsebas. ,,swored am patar-patara siyvaruliTaa es qveyana budesaviT moqsovili". siyvaruli grZnobaa, romelic TiToeul adamians sicocxlis stimuls aZlevs, zrdis da sul sxva pirovnebad ayalibebs mas. mis gareSe martosulobis bneli sudara efareba suls. sicariele mkvdar okeanesaviT avsebs sivrces da CvenSi Casaxul pawawina imedasac klavs. ,
Tamaz WilaZis nawarmoeb ,,mdgmurebis" wakiTvisas Tvalwin gavacocxle TiToeuli personaJis qceva, ramac kidev erTxel damafiqra am cxovrebaze da kargad mimaxvedra, rom mTavaria erTmaneTs gavugoT, viyoT Tbilebi da siyvaruliT savseni, radgan es cxovreba mxolod Tvalis daxamxamebaa…..… jobs marto sakuTar Tavze ki ara, sxvebzec vifiqroT. Znelia, roca sicives gZnob iseTi adamianisgan, romelic SenTvis yvelaze Zvirfasia.
am nawarmoebis mTavari gmiri ioana itanjeboda ojaxis gulgrili damokidebulebis gamo. mas sWirdeboda mxolod siTbo, romelic arasodes ugrZvnia. Svili, romelic sicocxles erCivna, arafrad Tvlida, colis TvalebSi ki mis mimarT siZulvili aRar eteoda da obobas qseliviT edeboda mTel garemos. ioana gaxldaT musikis maswavlebeli, romelsac Zlier uyvarda ojaxi, magram col-Svilis gulgrili damokidebulebis gamo Tavs saSinlad grZnobda. es ki saSineli tkiviliT ukodavda guls da aravin iyo qveyanaze, rom misTvis gaego. mamasTan uerTierToba ar surda sakuTar Svils, igi sakuTar TavSi iketeboda, rcxvenoda sakuTari mamis, radgan igi musikis maswavlebeli iyo. ar mesmis, rogor SeiZleba grcxvenodes mamis, Tan imitom rom musikis maswavlebelia. gana maswavlebloba dasaZraxia?! piriqiT, maswavlebloba yvelaze didi amagia, romelsac adamiani gaigebs.
iona, miuxedavad yvelafrisa, SeZlebisdagvarad cdilobda ojaxisTvis araferi moeklo. SesaZleblobis maqsimums akeTebda, magram... mainc aravin ufasebda Sromas. coli mainc yovelTvis umaduri iyo da sayvedurebiT avsebda mas. ioana saSinel mdgomareobaSi iyo Cavardnili. colis damokidebuleba da Svilis aseTi gulgriloba sabolood uklavda guls.
mSoblisTvis yvelaze didi ganZi Svilia, romlisaTvisac yovelTvis SesaZleblobis maqsimums akeTebs. xSirad ki Svilebs gviWirs davinaxoT mSoblis amagi da davufasoT CvenTvis sauzareli Sroma. isini CvenTvis dge-Rames aTeneben,, cdiloben araferi mogvaklon, Cvengan ki sul cotas - siTbos iTxoven, romelic maT guls usazRvrod axarebs. Cvenc siyvaruliT vcocxlobT, gvaxarebs sityva ,,miyvarxar”. TiTqos am sityvis gagonebaze guli kaSkaSa varskvlaviviT brwyindeba da maSin, roca ioanam igrZno siTbo da mixvda, Tu ra grZnoba iyo siyvaruli, mosveneba dakarga, amis mTavari mizezi ki qali gaxldaT, saxelad - eva, romlis damokidebulebam ioana daarwmuna, rom cxovrebas azri aqvs da es azri siyvarulia.
ioanas gulidan mzeze gamotanili fiqri dRiTidRegaizarda. fiqri sinamdviled iqca, sinamdviles ki Tvalis moxuWva ar uyvars. sanam fiqriviT marto zis, kidev SeiZleba daemalo , yuradReba ar miaqcio, magram rogorc ki karze mogdebuli bavSviviT cxadi Seiqmneba, veRarsad gaeqcevi……...…da, ase...… misma gulma daiwyo iseTi Relva, rogoric arasodes ganucdia. ioana wvalobda, jer kidev gaurkveveli, Camouyalibebeli gZnobis CaxSoba surda. imasac grZnobda, rom marTla daitanjeboda, magram iqiTken ltolvac ki, saiTac axla guli eweoda, Tavbrus axvevda. Mmas ar SeeZlo am grZnobis gamxela... is mxolod Tavis gulSi arsebobda Cumad da sicocxlis stimuls aZlevda. Aai, am siCumem da gaumxelobam daRupa ioana. siyvaruli yvelaferia, misiT vxarobT da vcocxlobT. marTalia, ioanam icoda, rom am grZnobas ver gaamxelda, magram mTavari is iyo, rom igrZno , Tu ra iyo namdvili siyvaruli, ras niSnavs, roca vigacas uyvarxar, Senze zrunavs da mis TvalebSi Sendami TanagrZnobas xedav. Dasanania, vinc am qveynidan ise wava , rom ver gaigebs am grZnobis fass. roca es grZnoba ibadeba gulSi, mTel Sens cxovrebas, azrebs da fiqrebs ipyrobs. ioanas grZnobis Sesaxeb ki evam araferi icoda. Uubralod, man SeZlo Tavi Seeyvarebina misTvis. ioanas ki axarebda masTan siaxlove , am grZnobis gamxela arc ucdia, radgan misi guli isedac bednieri iyo da ver warmoidgenda, Tu win isev axali siurprizi elodeboda. ioanas sixaruli maleve daimsxvra. mas Tavzari dasca im faqtma, rom evas guli sxvas ekuTvnoda, Tan mis erTaderT vaJs. Aan SeiZleba sulac ar iyo es siyvaruli... iyo wuTieri Tavdaviwyeba. ra mniSvneloba aqvs?! ioanasTvis es Zalian didi dartyma aRmoCnda. gansacdelSi Cavarda, ar icoda, ra eqna, azrovnebis unari dakarga...… egona, rom mis irgvliv yvelaferi trialebda mas Semdeg, rac pirvelad igrZno, Tu ra iyo namdvili siyvaruli, romelic mas Zalian aklda, maleve damTavrda.
rTulia, martivad Seeguo imas, rom Seni sayvareli adamianis guli sxvas ekuTvnis. cxovreba moulodneli siurprizebiTaa savse, romelic zogjer gvaxarebs, zogjer ki did gansacdelSi gvagdebs da gvtnjavs. swored maSin aRmovCnebiT didi problebis winaSe rodesac saerTod ar moveliT. siyvaruls xSirad did bednierebasTan erTad didi mwuxareba, dardi da gulistkivilic moaqvs. vinc mTeli guliT da arsebiT giyvars, yovelTvis ginda , masac iseve uyvarde, rogorc – Sen, magram yovelTvis yvelaferi is ear xdeba, rogorc Cven gvinda. is adamiani, romelic giyvars, SenTvis mzea , Sen ki mis garSemo brundav. siyvaruli aris, roca giyvars is mTeli arsebiT, giyvars igi Tavidan bolomde, gamonaklisebis gareSe, da masSi ver amCnev cuds, mxolod kargs xedav. siyvaruli erTaderTia, ris gamoc Rirs cxovreba...
Cven yvelani, am wuTisoflis droebiTi stumrebi varT. Aam nawarmoebma me, piradad, bevri ram maswavla da magrZnobina am udidesi grZnobis - siyvarulis fasi, Tu ra dadebiT gavlenas axdens is adamianze, da rogor itanjeba kaci misi ararsebobis SemTxvevaSi. Cemi azriT, mwerlis ideac albaT is iyo, rom mkiTxvels kargad gaecnobierebina cxovrebis arsi, gaego, Tu ras iwvevs gulgriloba da rogoria usiyvarulobaSi myofi adamianis bedi. me mainc vfiqrob, adamianma Tavad unda Seiqmna sasurveli garemo, unda ibrZolo da moipovo is, rac Seni bednierebis safuZvelia.